Blue

Do you ever have days when you can't remember even one tiny little thing that normally makes you happy and satisfied with life!? Well I had one today and it wasn't pretty. I don't get it... I think I must've spent at least one hour lying on the sofa just staring. I felt so empty. Could it possibly be the fact that I've finally started to feel lonely? That I feel it would be nice to have a partner? Or maybe it's just these fucking Sundays... I don't even know myself, so how should you know? Although, you are free to speculate!

I saw Jens the other day. Haven't seen him since... Well, the beginning of March I think. It was a strange feeling. I expected not to feel anything at all, but... I don't know. He was sooo... Different somehow. In a good way. I think it's because this time we met without any expectations what so ever and that's when you see the true person. You see behind it all. That's why I don't like dating. People tend to act different when things are expected. Anyway we sat in the park for quite a long time, then had a stroll around Stumholmen. And after that we went to the movies and saw Slumdog Millionaire. What an amazing movie it was! It's been long since I saw a great film! It kinda had it all, you know. Love, action, intelligence, drama and comedy in one. It made me think about that old song about a soldier who bring a deck of cards to church and had to explain how in God's name he could bring such a sinfull thing into the house of God. He explained it all saying that each card had a religious meaning. Well it wasn't quite like that, but it resmebled some how. Anyway I highly recommend this film!!

Christian is moving back up north. Another one of my best friends far away. Sad really. I'm gonna miss him. But before he moves we're going to Brussels! The fifth of June we leave to go to Camilla and Pierre! It's gonna be nice to see them again, been nine months since the last time. I've never been to Belgium so I'm quite excited. I have an idea of it though, that it's gonna be quite alike Sweden. From what Pierre told the countries are pretty similar. I'll tell you more after the visit!

Think I'll log out for tonight. I'm really off today, nothing seems fun and I'm all rained out of energy. Hoping for a better day tomorrow.

Night!