Normally I don't give any new years resolutions, but this year I did. And as you see the months past, but I am now fucking proud to announce that I have fulfilled four out of six promises. The fourth hasn't technically started yet, but I've signed up for it so to speak. The other three I spent half an hour fixing last night. I am now a very proud member of Unicef, Amnesty International and Greenpeace. It feels so good to, instead of saying how nice it would be if I did something good for mankind, now can say that I am in fact doing something for mankind. I know there's no such thing as an completely unselfish action, so this is a win-win situation really. I get to feel good about my actions the same time as someone, or hopefully many, will be fed or provided with clothes or education, someone will be rescued from torture and maybe some seals will survive due to some activists! I am seriously considering joining WWF as well, then I've got my wishes covered. Can you imagine how amazing it would be to volunteer for a mission in either of the organisations. To physically be there and do something life altering for someone or something. I've always burnt for the subject of the death penalty... I wrote a big essay on it a few years back. Horrible. And them Marie started that class at the University of Lund about human rights and I accompanied her and her classmates to a modern opera of Dead Man Walking, based on the film with Sean Penn and Susan Sarandon. Maybe it's a book before that, I don't know.. Usually is. The thing is just this... A lot of thing intrest me, and I have a really hard time choosing. There's human rights, there gardening, and decoration- and interior design. I can't pick one of them... How do you know which is you calling? I need a sign from above.. or at least some guidance counselling. I'm getting too old to hesitate, God damn it.
Speaking of something entirelly different, I got a present today from someone really unexpected. I love gifts!!! Most of the time at least ;O) Wee!
Tonight Marie and I are having a horror film fest :D A autumn comes it's almost mandatory. Once a week, when darkness comes, if there're enough films. Tonight, The crypt is on the menu! Can't recall at all what it's about, but as usual I keep my fingers crossed it's at least a little bit scary. Disappointment is often a companion though. But, never lose hope! =)
Nah, think I'll do some reading until Marie arrives!
O.a.o =)
Simply me...
- ~Pokus~
- Lyckeby, Sweden
- What's there to say? I'm all me =) And I'm great at it!
lördag 22 augusti 2009
torsdag 20 augusti 2009
Continued...
Apparently I wasn't quite done writing for today. I think it's because I don't have anyone waiting for me at home asking me how my day was... I have all these things to tell, but noone to tell them to... Should I get myself a real diary? Nah, I'd probably fall asleep while writing, and I'd get ink all over. I can see myself waking up the next morning, word printed all over my left cheek.
So let's see, what to tell? Oh yeah, since last, I've been to Belgium and England... Belgium with Christian to visit Camilla and Pierre. It's always a blast hanging out with them. They showed us around, sighseeing in Brussels, lotsa nice parks and castles, which I appreciated a lot. We went to a latino festival, nice dancing, lots of food =) Christian and I went to Antwerp for a day, strolling around, visiting churches and doing some shopping. I thought Belgium was quite nice, the only thing really bothering me was that everywhere you went, you had to pay to go to the loo. There's always a lady sitting at the entrance charging money. Fitting enough Camilla told me they are called Madame Pipi. Hahahaha! Anyhow, it was a really nice trip.
And then, in July, Marie J and I went to London... Can't believe it's been three years since the last time I was there. I sightseed Marie all over... All the major attractions you're suppose to visit the first time you're there... Mdm Tussaudes, Picadilly C, Covent Garden, Notting Hill, Big Ben etc. etc. And, one of the best parts was that I met up with Carol with whom I worked at Wakehurst Place Gardens three years ago. She updated me on eneryone, mostly it was good news, but a few minor downers as well. It sure was good to see her again. Unfortunately I wasn't able to meet up with Sian, but maybe next time! =)
Otherwise the summer has been quite good. Midsummer was spent at Marie's place, Mattias came down, as usual, from Stockholm and Frida and Patrik from Emmaboda. Charlie couldn't make it unfortunately. But we had a good time anyway, it was me, dating at the time Jens, Marie, Mattias, Frida and Patrik. We played games, ate a lot, drank within reason... A nice day.
Otherwise I spent every chance I got with Memlan while she was here. Rickard also, of course.
Last week end Charlie came down from Uppsala. God, I'd missed her. We realized it's been past a year since we last met, and that it far too long. We always have such a good time. Hope she'll move closer soon. <3>
Going away to Poland in two weeks with work. Could be fun perhaps... At least Håkan's going, otherwise I'd probably stay at home. I don't know any of the other's from Wämö... Daniel a little, we usually hang out at the pub if we run into eachother, but the rest... Nah... Hope to get to know someone else also.
Yesterday I missed Zlatan's first game with FCB =( FCB vs. Machester city... I know it was just practice, but it still would've been good to see. Not that I would get TV4Sport just to see the games, but I sure as hell will find a place to watch his first real game. Gooo FCB!! I feel I made a really good deal, deciding to cheer for Barcelona. Just a coincidence really, only reason is that I've been at their home arena. And a short while after I chose them, they won Champions League. I sure know how to pick them =)
And speaking of picking... I should go read the book I just picked out. Nighty night! =)
So let's see, what to tell? Oh yeah, since last, I've been to Belgium and England... Belgium with Christian to visit Camilla and Pierre. It's always a blast hanging out with them. They showed us around, sighseeing in Brussels, lotsa nice parks and castles, which I appreciated a lot. We went to a latino festival, nice dancing, lots of food =) Christian and I went to Antwerp for a day, strolling around, visiting churches and doing some shopping. I thought Belgium was quite nice, the only thing really bothering me was that everywhere you went, you had to pay to go to the loo. There's always a lady sitting at the entrance charging money. Fitting enough Camilla told me they are called Madame Pipi. Hahahaha! Anyhow, it was a really nice trip.
And then, in July, Marie J and I went to London... Can't believe it's been three years since the last time I was there. I sightseed Marie all over... All the major attractions you're suppose to visit the first time you're there... Mdm Tussaudes, Picadilly C, Covent Garden, Notting Hill, Big Ben etc. etc. And, one of the best parts was that I met up with Carol with whom I worked at Wakehurst Place Gardens three years ago. She updated me on eneryone, mostly it was good news, but a few minor downers as well. It sure was good to see her again. Unfortunately I wasn't able to meet up with Sian, but maybe next time! =)
Otherwise the summer has been quite good. Midsummer was spent at Marie's place, Mattias came down, as usual, from Stockholm and Frida and Patrik from Emmaboda. Charlie couldn't make it unfortunately. But we had a good time anyway, it was me, dating at the time Jens, Marie, Mattias, Frida and Patrik. We played games, ate a lot, drank within reason... A nice day.
Otherwise I spent every chance I got with Memlan while she was here. Rickard also, of course.
Last week end Charlie came down from Uppsala. God, I'd missed her. We realized it's been past a year since we last met, and that it far too long. We always have such a good time. Hope she'll move closer soon. <3>
Going away to Poland in two weeks with work. Could be fun perhaps... At least Håkan's going, otherwise I'd probably stay at home. I don't know any of the other's from Wämö... Daniel a little, we usually hang out at the pub if we run into eachother, but the rest... Nah... Hope to get to know someone else also.
Yesterday I missed Zlatan's first game with FCB =( FCB vs. Machester city... I know it was just practice, but it still would've been good to see. Not that I would get TV4Sport just to see the games, but I sure as hell will find a place to watch his first real game. Gooo FCB!! I feel I made a really good deal, deciding to cheer for Barcelona. Just a coincidence really, only reason is that I've been at their home arena. And a short while after I chose them, they won Champions League. I sure know how to pick them =)
And speaking of picking... I should go read the book I just picked out. Nighty night! =)
Well, well...
Wow... I wonder if I've beaten some kind of personal record!? Not a single word in almost three months. Since it's my nature to write, I always wonder what brings me not to write sometimes when I feel sad or extremely happy about something. Normally I would be ready to burst if I couldn't put it in writing, but maybe I've unconsciously found other ways to express myself.
I've read a lot lately... Maybe that helps.
And speaking of reading I think I've got a new favorite author; Dean Koontz. Now I realize he's no Shakespeare or any other of litterature's great Gods, but he sure as hell can right exciting stuff.. The suspence is killing me, you're on needles throughout the entire book. I know Stephen King is known as the master of horror and suspence, and maybe his books are more brutal and visually more grotesque but I've never been pinned to a chair before, not being able to stop reading. Now, King is still one of my favorites.. He's so multifaceted... He does not only write horror fiction, but quite beautiful stories sometimes... Maybe beautiful ain't the best word, but nice... Containing a whole other sense of... Can't find the word for it.
I've been a bit on the down side lately, although the last week have been good. Keeping my fingers crossed it'll last. I think this fall will be life alternate for me. I've signed up for a healthclub... A membership of a year where not only do you train the body, you also train your thoughts. It's all about disciplining your mind. Break bad habits, get new good ones. Achieving goals you put up.Turning your life into what you want it to be. I also looked as some schools. Both single classes and entire educational programs. Decorating designer and interior designer. I want it, but both my selfesteem and my self confidence are so low right now that the word university itself scares the living crap out of me. I don't know why I have so many doubts. Maybe it's because I'm flying solo this time. Last time I had Tomas. Someone to catch my fall had I not managed to get in. Someone for comfort. I hate that I'm a little scaredy cat, so afraid of failure. But by all means, this time I will conquer my fear and send applications to all the schools I wanna attend. I think it's quite easy to forget why we fight our way through life sometimes... It's important to get your priorities straight so you know what you are aiming for. And you should always shoot for the stars. I think I new friend taught me that. It's funny really how your mood can change from day to day. I had a talk with Marie about this yesterday. Some days you simply love life, the world is gloriously wonderful you barely know what to do with yourself. Miracles everywhere. And then the next day, not so enthusiastic at all. The world is a horrible place with death, greed and hunger. How could anyone want to put a child into this world full of hatred and ignorance? Yeah, I know, I sound like I suffer from M.P.D. hehe.
Anyhow I should be looking for my jewellery tongs. Mom'd bought a make-your-own-jewellery -kit and needed to borrow some of my aquipment. Fine by me, since I haven't made a necklace in ages. Although I should pick up on some of my old hobbies. I really need to learn to socialize with myself these forthcoming months! Might as well do something creative at the same time ;o) Or maybe painting? Or... Knitting... Or.... Hmm... You got any other suggestions? I'm all ears!
Right now I feel like I could sit here for hours, spilling my heart out. It's typical that I made plans... Think I've gotta go now... Maybe I'll tune back here later...
o.a.o :D
I've read a lot lately... Maybe that helps.
And speaking of reading I think I've got a new favorite author; Dean Koontz. Now I realize he's no Shakespeare or any other of litterature's great Gods, but he sure as hell can right exciting stuff.. The suspence is killing me, you're on needles throughout the entire book. I know Stephen King is known as the master of horror and suspence, and maybe his books are more brutal and visually more grotesque but I've never been pinned to a chair before, not being able to stop reading. Now, King is still one of my favorites.. He's so multifaceted... He does not only write horror fiction, but quite beautiful stories sometimes... Maybe beautiful ain't the best word, but nice... Containing a whole other sense of... Can't find the word for it.
I've been a bit on the down side lately, although the last week have been good. Keeping my fingers crossed it'll last. I think this fall will be life alternate for me. I've signed up for a healthclub... A membership of a year where not only do you train the body, you also train your thoughts. It's all about disciplining your mind. Break bad habits, get new good ones. Achieving goals you put up.Turning your life into what you want it to be. I also looked as some schools. Both single classes and entire educational programs. Decorating designer and interior designer. I want it, but both my selfesteem and my self confidence are so low right now that the word university itself scares the living crap out of me. I don't know why I have so many doubts. Maybe it's because I'm flying solo this time. Last time I had Tomas. Someone to catch my fall had I not managed to get in. Someone for comfort. I hate that I'm a little scaredy cat, so afraid of failure. But by all means, this time I will conquer my fear and send applications to all the schools I wanna attend. I think it's quite easy to forget why we fight our way through life sometimes... It's important to get your priorities straight so you know what you are aiming for. And you should always shoot for the stars. I think I new friend taught me that. It's funny really how your mood can change from day to day. I had a talk with Marie about this yesterday. Some days you simply love life, the world is gloriously wonderful you barely know what to do with yourself. Miracles everywhere. And then the next day, not so enthusiastic at all. The world is a horrible place with death, greed and hunger. How could anyone want to put a child into this world full of hatred and ignorance? Yeah, I know, I sound like I suffer from M.P.D. hehe.
Anyhow I should be looking for my jewellery tongs. Mom'd bought a make-your-own-jewellery -kit and needed to borrow some of my aquipment. Fine by me, since I haven't made a necklace in ages. Although I should pick up on some of my old hobbies. I really need to learn to socialize with myself these forthcoming months! Might as well do something creative at the same time ;o) Or maybe painting? Or... Knitting... Or.... Hmm... You got any other suggestions? I'm all ears!
Right now I feel like I could sit here for hours, spilling my heart out. It's typical that I made plans... Think I've gotta go now... Maybe I'll tune back here later...
o.a.o :D
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