Got any good suggestions?

Not even gonna bother say "long time no see"

God, I feel uninspired.... I don't know how to regain my go. I know you're suppose to visualize a clear goal, men but it's damned hard when you don't have anyone to share your progress and setbacks with. You don't realize just how lonely you really are until something grand happens. I have noone to say "Get your act together and don't give up" or give me a cheer or push in the right direction. Crap. I feel I could be fighting a much better fight than I am right now, but something's grabbed hold of me and is pulling me down. I need to find something to keep my head above water... But what?
Do you think there's a motivation tree somewhere that you can sit underneath and maybe pick its fruit and have a marvellous mind energizing feast? No? Me neither... Unfortunately I'm of the believe that we all make our own happiness... Of course we are not entirelly independent from others, there are a lot of paths to be crossed during a life time. I do want to make my own happiness, so bad, but right now it feels like I'm in a horribly dull place and in front of me "status quo" is written in huge letters.... I want to erase them, but I have no rubber... Maybe I should make a schedule and just live firmly by it until the worst is over.... I hate schedules, but maybe rutine is what I need.... No questions, just look at what's next and do it.... Like a robot... It's not like it's forever... Just a couple of months.... Manic during week days and free as a bird on week ends.... I wonder if I can make it work? It lies not in my nature, but maybe I should give it a go...

But for this to work I need my goals and they need to be crystal... Visualize Em, visualize!!!

I'm dying to go to Malmö soon. I haven't been there for months and months... Not like me at all... But now I'm longing for autumn in M.... Shopping, seeing all my friends.... Crawl up with R in the evenings. I'm seriously (nothing to do with Malmö) considering getting my tounge pierced now while I'm sipping soup anyway. Not this week end, but maybe the next one =) If I have anyone to come with me! No fun doing that yourself. Maybe I'll ask Marie!

Nah, maybe I should go on with reality for a bit, the bike awaits me and so does an episode of Gilmore Girls =)