Made you look!

Yes, I know... It's been a really long time since I wrote anything here. Probably too long. A lot of things have happened since last time, but it would take ages for me to tell you all about it, so I won't. Hopefully things will come to reveal themselves during the fall. I have a strong feeling I'll be doing som writing here as the darkness of autumn slowly creeps up to the window.
There sure is somethings special about fall... The trees are turning into an explosion of a million colors and all you do is crawl up in the couch with a thousand lit candles, a blanket, a cup of tea and a good book. Of course, preferably, you'd exchange the book for someone to snuggle with, but in lack of that a book will do just fine. I've come to long for fall, wich is rather strange because I've always hated that time of year. It's been the time when I've felt lonley, insecure, forgotten and depressed. But last year it never came. And now I honestly find myself longing for it. It's a strange feeling, but I suppose it's because I've realised I really need to have some quality time with myself. Some Em-time. I've decided to start training again, working out. Do some Yoga twice a week, powerwalking and then biking. I actually feel like going to the gym, but it's really expensive. Aaaah, well, we'll see.

Went down to Malmö this Thursdag after work. Felt I had to get away for a while and it just so happens it was the annual festival. Perfect!! Went to stay at Rickards place the first night, but ended up staying there until Saturday. Felt really good with some closeness.
Hugs are truly underestimated. It's weird... A hug can mean a million things and warm even the coldest soul. Just waking up beside someone, feeling their arms around your waist. Their breath against your skin. Wonderful feeling. I'll miss it too!
Anyway, first night we had some beer and a few glasses of wine before we hit town to meet some of Rickard's friends to listen to Millencollin. Got there a bit late, but we still managed to see a few songs. Reall great! Went for a beer with Fredrik and Helena. Really nice people. Unfortunately I got shy again and probably made myself look like the dullest girl ever to have walked the earth, but hey... Not much I can do about it at the present.
Half friday was spent in bed and on the couch, watching a movie, reading a little in my book, while Rickard was looking at some guitars. Finally Charlie came and we had some dinner and then cracked open the wine! Delicious wine, by the way. Dangerously tasty. After a fair amount of alchohol we hit town only discover there was nothing around we wanted to do. So we ate some thai food and went home. Saturday was the day of all moviedays. We strated by watching The Assassination of Jesse James, but after about half the movie we were all so bored that we considered turning it off... But instead we pressed the ffw-button and just saw the ending. I thing we all agreed that it was one of the worst films we'd seen in a long time. We then decided to see anotherone, but this time, I worked as a reference since I'd seen the film before. I recomended No country for old men, and was terrified they would find that movie dull as well. Luckily for me, we shared the same oppinion about the film. Anyway as Charlie and I headed home to Lund we oddly decided to rent yet another movie and finally found one that sounded exciting. A good thriller. Gotta say we both really got our hopes up, on the cover there were standing ovations about the film. Well, jockpot my ass. It honestly was the most horrific, unnecessary, grotesque, yucky, twisted piece of movie ever made. The fact that it was French explained some of it. I know that sounded harsh, but it's not what it sounds like. The French are utterly brilliant at special effects. Making violence look so real that it's almost impossible to watch. Wich of course is a great achievement. So I suppose that from a special- effect- enthusiast's point of view, it was a master piece, but for a regular person it was just sick, twisted and disgusting. There was no point what so ever. It was about a woman who breaks an entry into a pregnant woman's house and spends the whole night tortueing her. Of course there are other people coming to the house in the middle of the night to check on her but some- fucking- how this woman manages to kill them all in gruesome bloody ways. That was one and a half hour of queasiness. YUCK!! I can't possibly understand what twisted mind put that script together. So, having said this, DON'T rent "Inside" After that we put on another "cute" movie to calm our nerves and forget about the blood bath. The last day, today, was spent at Nova Lund... Didn't find much, just two sweaters. Had some fish and then went to the station.
Looks like Charlie's going to move to Uppsala in a few weeks or so. I do think it's a bit too far away from me, haha. But I'm happy for her, finally she and Tobias will be living together. I hope she'll be happy! And besides, that gives me reason to visit Uppsala. Still haven't been there.

God I should really hit the bed... Working tomorrow. Believe me when I say I wouldn't have had the slightest thing against staying down there a few more days... Escaping reality just a little bit longer. Well... Life's waiting, so...

Hopefully I'll keep this up.

Huge hugs to Charlie and Rickard for making these days worth the while!

Nighty night!