I'm getting even worse at writing in here than before! Unbelievable! Have to say I'm little bit ashamed. Haven't written anything since January!! I suppose a breif update from the previous few moths are in order. Almost can't remember what has happened.
Jens and I broke up, so I am now single again. Told you this dating-thing ain't for me. I keep ending up hurting people, feels terrible. Starting the year by breaking a heart is not exactly ideal, but I think in the end it was all for the best. So yes, free as the bird =)
Had a break from work, but instead of the four months it ought to've been, it was just two. Felt great with a break. Think I would've puked all over it if I'd continued much longer. And so during those weeks I got the idea that I should maybe pull my thumbs out of my sorry ass and finally get that drivers' licence that's been waiting for me. So I did. Took nearly six weeks and alot of effort as well as money. It was all worth it! Suddenly I realised that nothing limited me any more... If I'd wanted to move even further from the city, it would no longer be a problem. A sense of freedom I've never felt before. It was a struggle and once it was over... I don't know, I don't think I grasped it. Still not sure I have... But it's there and it's mine and as long as I'm being good, noone can take it from me!
Oh, and also of course I had my birthday; my 26th birthday! Haven't celebrated it yet though, but this Saturday I think I'll have a party for family and relatives and then maybe the last week end of this month I'll have a proper party for my friends.
I started work yesterday and I couldn't have asked for a more glorious day to begin with. The sun was shining, birds twittering, loads of ladybugs and the first bumble bee of the year! As soon as I saw it, I knew it was spring. I was filled with this immence feeling of happiness. For me spring time is a time of reliefe. All tensions are released and an inner calm fills me. It's like I can do anything I put my mind to. I see miracles in everything. Simply loving every second of life. Haha, almost sounds like I went religious. Thankfully that's not the case! I just think there's something magically wonderful about spring time. And as I thought yesterday was to be the highlight, today was even better. I met a woman that's suppose to be with us for a few weeks, work training. She is an absolutely amazing person. I liked her from the minute we started talking and you can do nothing but beam when you're around her. She's been through a lot and despite that she simply radiates with fight and will power. I couldn't stop smiling having met her. I hope she'll be with us for quite a while.
Sitting here thinking of what to cook for the party... I could do a buffet... Cold cuts of meat, maybe som chicken (dare I??) and a veggie- something. Lotsa sallads and hm... Is there time for all of this? Apparently I've been told it's Friday tomorrow ;o) I'm sure I can get som help if I need it!
Oh by the way, yesterday was April-fools' Day and one of our local news papers had the best one. They wrote that there' was this new law, that made all the dog owners to be fined 500sek if they didn't carry a visible pooping bag whilst walking their dogs. After three misdemeanours, the dog will be confiscated!! Brilliant!!! =) I laughed my ass off. However it seems that a lot of people didn't get the joke, o in today's paper was a notice that this was just an April fools' joke. They radio had also went out with the joke that in the near future speed cameras was to be put up at sea. Hahaha!! The weird, but slightly sad part about people not getting the jokes is that nothing surprises anymore. Anything, any law, is possible. The society has reached the point where soon all boundaries are broken and things sieze to amaze.
I sat talking to Andreas, a new acquaintance, yesterday and we got around to talk about things you wanted to do, like learning how to play the guitar or learning a new language and it got me thinking of all my unpersued dreams. Why are they unfullfilled?? What do I have to lose?? As usual i came to the conclusion that it all has to do with fear of failure. Deep down it has to be and it needs to stop. It time to start living the, presumably, only life I've got! =)
So by that, time for supper!
In Omnia Paratus....
