Well, that'll soon be the end of this week... Feels good. Not that it hasn't been an okay week, it's just... Not having the best day today. Lei left as soon as we woke up to go back to Malmö. A lot of homework and labs to finish. I miss her already. We had a great night yesterday, talking for hours, drinking coffee util we couldn't close our eyes and then moved over to mineral water and grapes. We shared our inner most feelings and it felt good. Both her and I, I think, don't have anyone to spill our guts to if needed. I have all my dearest, closest friends on a distance and even though the phones are in order, it's not quite the same. I need someone to really listen to me. I need someone to hug me. I need someone to be my friend right now, but everyone seem to be way too busy with their own stuff at the moment and I get that. I really do. School and work and whatever fills your days is hard and I don't wanna be the one clinging for attention when people don't have the time, it's just... I really need someone. All I can do is reach out a hand and hope someone'll grab it. So far no one has. At least Lei made it a lot easier for me. I got to spill some out at least and it was like a stone off my chest. I know what you must be thinking, she becoming depressed again or she's in love... Or she's having issues at work or something else like that, but the truth is... I'm none of those things I think, but I'm screaming for attention. I need someone to see me before I vanish into some blurry fog. I refuse to let go of this feel-good-feeling that's built a nest inside me... Nah, enough of this kind of talk, let's focus on the ups instead! Thank you for last night sweetheart, it meant a lot! I miss the good old days! Love you hun!
I considering going to Malmö for the day on Saturday. I need to do some serious shopping. New pants, a jacket I've seen at H&M and maybe a pair of new boots or something. Pants are the top priority. Thought maybe Emelie would have the time to go with me, but she had this big exam coming up. Just realised though that it's not pay day until the week after... Crap! Should I wait? I have needs to fill. Not only do I really need more clothes, but I also started to get the urge to change myself and although it's expensive I thought I'd try filling the need with clothes instead of piercings, tattoos or new hair color as I normally do at times like those. Hoping for a good result!
I suddely got immensely tired. Think I'll leave this blog as it is and go realx in the couch instead. Think tomorrow will be a way better day than this one has been. C ya soon!
