Drafts and crafts..

Today was a good day! I'd expected it to be more dull to return to work due to an, apparently imagined, dispute... I tend to get a little paranoid sometimes when people for no obvious reason start treating me different what they normally do, but I guess this time it was just plain paranoia! I'm glad, really glad that nothing's wrong. Infact it felt better than usual. Maybe it's because you get some time apart during the days off. Anyway I had a blast... Or... Well, that was a huge over statement, but it was good. We took down a great big beech tree today and just the sound of it thrusting down makes me shiver... Shiver in a good way. I love the sound of a branch twitching or a tree falling. Aaaah!! ;o) I also got the keyes to the gym I've been waiting for and I called Stefan to have him but my code in the system. So as soon as I learn where the gym is actually located, I'm ready to kick off! Flying solo in the gym might just be more right for me than struggeling among a bunch of others in a public place. Just doing things in my own pace, no rush! Think it'll be great!

Just a few minutes ago it felt like I had a million things to rwite and now my mind's a complete blank... Sitting at my mom's place, feet on the desk, keyboard in my lap gazing over at the screen... Wish I'd brought my glasses....

Yesterday I cut and dyed mom's hair... Dying - no problem, I can do that blind folded, but cutting.... I don't think I've gotten near someone besides myself with a scissors since I accidently shaved off a piece of Tomas' hair... He asked me once to help him cut his hair in the back of the neck after he trimmed his hair and I didn't realize he'd taken the trimming aquipment off and that it was now a shaver... The rest I'm sure you can imagine for yourselves!? Anyway, the point is, mom's hair actually looked really nice after I finished! Really nice! It was like a little make over! That made me realize I want one too... I'm entering one of those fazes where I feel I have to renew myself... I promised Rickard no impulsive tattooing again though! However... I've been chasing the idea of another piercing for ages now, and I'm not exactly getting any braver as I age so maybe it's now or never! I've had my fair share of piercings during the years, but I now only have two left, not counting the ears. So the question then changes into : Where? My tounge or my lip? The lip'll actually be a reamaking of the old one... Yeah well, if I can't decide, I can always wait a bit longer... But a haircut, definately a haircut! And maybe a streak or two. Bah, enough about the looks, I sound like some teenager!

Started taking the birth control pills again today.... Have to try them again. I got a new brand but I got all depressed and devastated.... I can't say for sure it was their fault, that's why I'm trying them again. But the least sensation of sadness or any other negative feeling I'm off them again. Seems like I'm doomed when it comes to birth control... Nothing suits me... Last ones I tried gave me every single side effect exept for diminished sex drive and head aches. You can imagine how "great" I felt, hahaha!! Bleh, hormons...

I just realized that it was a while ago since I actually wrote something really constructive here... Or I mean... Since I was actually blogging of a subject not containting the word Emelie... Real stuff... Debating over gay rights or the war in the middle east... But to be honest this blog is almost like a friend I can confide in. I don't scribble down my inner most feelings here of course, since I'm fully aware I have a few very faithful readers. Not that I feel I don't trust them, but I prefer telling them in person if there's something really important. Mainly it's just rubbish in here, my every day thoughts and reflections, fears and enjoyments... Well you know me :P

Think I should finish off here now... Try to turn the sleeping hours around!

I miss you sweet...